So last night I had plans to eat a health dinner of shrimp, brown rice and spinach. But when I arrived home after a long day I found my boyfriend…cooking. He NEVER cooks, but he was making spahgetti and meatballs and who was I to resist? I only took 2 meatballs and 2 spoonfuls of pasta. Plus a glass of red wine. I feel like that wasn’t too bad considering I had had a smaller breakfast and lunch. 

And this morning I came in to find free bagels because of Veterens day. I put my yogurt and vitamuffin in the fridge/freezer and dug in. But I’m feeling okay about that–I’m food journaling and I’m just going to have to make up for it later. 

Plus I’m feeling good because I made home made granola bars yesterday, plus packed my gym bag. It’s in my car and I’m off for a weight lifting session after work. Woo!

Later I will settle in with a healthy dinner to watch the Biggest Loser. I’m feeling good.

I’m dissapointed with myself. 

I was doing well for several weeks, but lethargy and apathy took over and I stopped food journaling, and working out. 

I’ve slowly climbed back onto the wagon though. I started fixing my food at first–now I’m back to journaling. And I’ve started exercising as well. 

I’ve decided that I need to start working out after work though. My major problem with working so late because of my project is that I go home, am starving, eat dinner, wait to digest, at which point it’s 10 PM and I’m tired and ready for bed. 

So tonight I’m buying stuff to make homemade granola bars. I’ll pack one for consumption on the way to the gym, and pack my gym bag and put it in my car trunk tonight. 

Tomorrow is a light cardio +weightlifting day. 

Ooh! Plus–I finally made it over to Great Harvest for bread. The honey wheat was good but SO big. I’m still eating it 2 weeks later! Also Kath mentioned that it tasted like donuts and I thought that rang pretty true. It’s very sweet and more of something I’d eat with tea. I want something that I can have as a sandwhich or with soup. I think next time I’m going to try the Dakota bread.

I’m trying to make better decisions for myself here lately. Easing back into health and fitness. It helped reading some journal entries from last year and saw that even though I was super busy at work I was doing a great job training for my 10 mile race. It helps to know that I’ve done it before and should be able to do it again.

Today I had yogurt, raspberries, and Kashi GoLean Crunch.

Lunch was half of a turkey, cheese, and avocado sandwich on honey whole wheat from Great Harvest. Plus some butternut squash soup I made last week. Mmm.

Dinner will probably be leftover baked ziti (no healthy version there–hot turkey sausage, full fat ricotta, 2% mozzarella, diced tomatoes and noodles) I’ll just make sure it’s a smaller portion.

Tonight I WORK OUT. NO EXCUSES.

I’ll be back to report on my success.

Bless me blogger for I have sinned. It’s been…a really long time since I’ve exercised or logged calories, or even thought about making sure my food is healthy and balanced. 

Sigh.

I haven’t gone totally off the deep end, but I’ve put on a pound, which is–you know–kind of the opposite direction I was hoping to go in. I’ve got to find that happy place where exercise and eating right doesn’t feel like a chore. 

I think the cold has something to do with it. Also some major stress at work lately. All I want to do when I get home is put on a thick pair of socks, cuddle under a blanket and read a good book. Or watch some trashy TV. With a piece of pumpkin bread and a mug of tea. Mmm.

What I don’t want to do is put on exercise clothes, go down into the cold basement and run. Or have to go out to the gym to lift weights. 

And my eating–again while not calorically out of control–has been crap. Yesterday I had a chocolate cake donut, and a personal sized pizza. Plus some celery and peanut butter. Now the pizza did have all veggies on it (spinach and broccoli) but still. Not good.

I’m slowly trying to get back on track. I’m going to make sure I do SOME KIND of work out tomorrow. I need to get a handle on the eating though. First comes meal planning and grocery shopping though.

As in weight lifting. Because that’s the only reason I can think of that my weight has done a free fall over the last few days. I haven’t lifted weights in a week and I’m sure I’m just shedding muscle like there’s no tomorrow. My weight has gone down but over the same course of time my bodyfat has stayed the same. (Although over the course of my entire weightloss I’ve lost 2.5% body fat. Woo!) I don’t want to be skinny-fat. I actually like muscle and the way it looks on me quite a bit. I ran 3 miles yesterday but today I think I need to get into the gym and move those plates. 

The Biggest Loser is starting to get on my nerves. I hate all the game play. And Jillian annoys the crap out of me. But it’s still inspiring to see some of these people try to improve their lives so I watched it as I ran yesterday. (I DVRed it though and it lasted about 45 minutes this way–mind you it’s a 2 hour show.)

Also today is a bad food day. We had a team lunch (pizza, sliders, and crabcakes), and then there’s a dessert event to raise money for the AHA. I feel a little bad but I just may not go to the dessert thing. :\

I’m getting a little bored with weight loss. Not tired thankfully or I’d just stop. But in some ways I just wish I could stop thinking about all of this an take a big nap. Maybe I just need a good night of sleep tonight and I’ll feel a little more chipper tomorrow.

So my body decided to let go of some serious water weight today, for which I am grateful. It’s difficult to be doing everything right but not to see any measurable progress. 

I did about 2 miles running and walking yesterday, and I’ve finally eaten through some not so healthy leftovers (in small portions) and I’m ready to get back to fruits, veggies, whole grains, beans, lean proteins, fish, etc. I’m going to stop by the store today and pick up stuff to make a pumpkin soup and a black bean soup. Yum!

I’ve also got some coupons from work coming for a new digital camera so maybe I can liven up this page with some photos.

In other news I’m headed to NYC this weekend. I’m going to try and keep portions small because I know the food situation will probably not be good (plus alcohol) and I won’t get a chance to work out. I don’t want to undo the progress I’ve had up until now!